my Winehouse’s parents Mitch and Janis have released never-before-seen pages from her teenage diaries to mark what would have been her 40th birthday.
The singer would have celebrated the milestone age on September 14, but tragically passed away on July 23, 2011, in her Camden flat from alcohol poisoning after binge drinking following a period of abstinence.
Her life was dogged by drug and alcohol abuse and she suffered with a long battle with eating disorder bulimia.
Now, fans have been given a candid insight into what was going through Winehouse’s mind during her formative years, including embracing the fact that she was “different” from other people and worrying if she would never find love.
In excerpts released by The Telegraph, the Rehab hit-maker wrote: “I’m pleased that I’m different. It’s not like I want to be like everyone else. I love having my own individual style. I love being loud and mouthing off to people. It’s the way I am.”
Amy Winehouse pictured with mum Janis at the 2008 Grammy Awards
/ Getty ImagesWinehouse also pondered in her writing about whether love would elude her in life and what kind of match she might like.
She mused: “Sometimes I think, I wonder if there’s someone, some guy out there who’s as crazy as me? A nice guy with dark hair, who wears glasses to read and is a real Indie kid? Piercings optional, Scottish or Irish accent preferably!
“And why do all my brother’s friends fit this description, yet I’m much too young to do anything about it?
She added: “Is love ever going to cross my path or am I destined to go out with metalheads or gorgeous guys with NO BRAIN.(One thing I despise).”
Elsewhere, she lamented having a short fuse, admitting that she sometimes got “physically violent with those I love” as a result.
A biopic about her life is currently in the works title Back To Black and starring actress Marisa Abela as Winehouse.
